Consciousness and Reality.


I have constantly written about our ability to make contact with our higher selves, using techniques of breathing to alter consciousness enabling us to reach up into higher states of awareness, but now I would like to explore the idea of interacting with our divine-self at this level, the level we exist in on a daily basis.  If we can do this we can begin to grasp who we really are; with such understanding suddenly dimensions, space, matter, time, gravity etc do not matter. I do remember speaking about this a year or so back, but the fullness of this fusion – higher self with smaller self – is only making itself known to me now as I begin to realise that such an extraordinary experience is actually available to all of us. I know Lester Levenson experienced this ultimate state and from the research I am doing it would seem that this is the path Humanity has begun to tread.  If we are to make the radical changes needed to open us up to a more advanced level of growth, then the small self needs to accept what is possible.

As a brief exercise, can we explore the idea of dimensions as frequencies. If we could look at our surroundings in a new way we might understand why at a quantum level our reality is regarded as an illusion. To begin with let’s visualise our environment as a shimmering, moving vibrating locality; a place that is not solid, not stable, but instead is fading in and out of view. As we visualise matter in this way suddenly it is possible to see our reality as undefined. If we can hold the image even for the briefest of moments, we might begin to ‘see’ how this world we move around in could be called illusorily by many who have this expanded viewpoint.

I refer often Lester Levenson because through his meditations he saw this world as a dream. He was able to shift his consciousness in such a way that the world he lived in – our world – took on a new vista.  He saw it in a similar way to how we have just observed it, but he was not using his imagination, his state of consciousness had expanded to such a degree that this space we call reality began to appear transitory.  He had moved beyond the frequency setup by this system, beyond the collective mind-set, beyond the vibratory rate of mankind, meaning he was able to see the level of existence we function in as a dream-like state of mind.

The guides who are dictating a series of books through the channel Paul Selig, maintain that it is important we all make contact with who we really are and that we begin to accept that our world is the product of a powerful, unified, collective thought form. Many who are reading Selig’s books are beginning to feel an alteration to their frequency, and although I am not so lucky, I continue to have a fleeting contact with something enormous that flashes into my consciousness when I say the words, ‘I am here’. It is very similar to the mantra, ‘I Am’ but the feeling stemming from, ‘I am here’ seems to allow me to experience just a hint of something overwhelmingly huge. This divine part of me is here, and occasionally in my normal everyday world I feel just a brush of contact. Before my heart operation I used to feel a ‘presence’. Thankfully it has returned and has alerted me to the fact that it is ‘me’ my small self who remains unaware. This might be the case for many of us because I know with certainty that our divinity is always within, always with us, but the small, dense. 3rd dimensional entity has no idea of such a presence. So, there is a new reality forming, an existence that we need to move towards.

Alas I find that dealing with this mind-expanding next step is confronting to the normal ‘me’. The few times I have been fully immersed in my divinity my small self has reared up in panic warning me that such a change to how I function is threatening. This is because I am so attached to what I have been indoctrinated to think is normal. What I have agreed to; what the collective has deemed real and true. Even though I know reality is just a collection of ideas, vibrating at a certain rate, accepted and shared by us all, nevertheless, what I have always known as real feels safe. This makes it hard to step into a new world. Is this same for others?  Perhaps finding out who we really are will challenge us until we give way to revelation.



























Our Power in This Reality


I have constantly written about our ability to make contact with our higher selves, using techniques of breathing to alter consciousness enabling us to reach higher states of awareness, but now I would like to explore the idea of bringing our divine-self down into to this realm, so we can experience who we really are in this 3rd dimensional world. I do remember speaking about this a year or so back, but the fullness of this fusion – higher self with smaller self – is only making itself known to me now.  I have begun to accept that such an extraordinary experience is actually available to all of us. I know Lester Levenson experienced this ultimate state and from the research I am doing it would seem that this is the path Humanity has now begun to tread.  If we are to make the radical changes needed to move us up to the next level of growth, then the small self needs to accept what is possible.

The guides who are dictating a series of books through the channel Paul Selig, maintain that it is important we all make contact with who we really are. Many who are reading Selig’s books are beginning to feel an alteration to their frequency, and although I am not so lucky, I continue to have a fleeting contact with something enormous that flashes into my consciousness when I say the words, ‘I am here’. It is very similar to the mantra, ‘I Am’ and the feeling stemming from, ‘I am here’ seems to allow me to experience just a hint of something so overwhelming, so magnificent that it is almost impossible to grasp. This divine self is here, and occasionally in this normal everyday world I feel just a brush of contact. This has alerted me to the fact that it is ‘me’ my small self who is asleep. This might be the case for many of us because I know with certainty that our divinity is always within, always with us, but the small, dense. 3rd dimensional entity has no idea of such a presence. For me, the excitement attached to bringing our divinity into our normal day takes my breath away.  Hmm… and I thought I was awake!

When this contact happens, it comes as a feeling not a thought. It vibrates inside me like a physical sensation, meaning I sometimes struggle with those lengthy paragraphs which tend only to occupy the intellect. For me, the apex of this exquisite experience is alive with movement; with actual feeling; with sensations, awareness and visualisations, so reading words on a page can be an interference – but then how else can these concepts be passed on?

Also, I find that dealing with this mind-expanding next step is confronting to the normal ‘me’. The few times I have been fully immersed in my divinity my small self has reared up in panic warning me that such a change to how I function is threatening. This is because I am so attached to what I have been indoctrinated to think is normal. What I have agreed to; what the collective has deemed real and true. Even though I know reality is just a collection of ideas accepted and shared by us all, nevertheless, what is known still feels safe.  This could be the same for many of us, for it does not matter how good or bad our life experiences might be, finding out who we really are will be a challenge until we give way to revelation.
























Our Power


For the past few months the small ‘me’ has felt increasingly trapped inside this body of flesh and bone, but occasionally another lighter, more translucent, spiralling energy has been able to lift me into a new state of awareness. Functioning inside such opposing selves has given me insight into how dense and severe our daily world can be.  It has become obvious that this 3rd dimensional reality has entrapped us, smothering our ability to know who we really are. I cannot claim to be free of this suffocation but having had contact with such exquisite lightness, I know  what is possible. Of course, my heart by-pass operation has crystallised what used to be just a vague yet threatening impression of a hidden darkness, nevertheless I can confirm here that if we can bring about a change to our lives we will all discover a divine state of grace

I am finding that operating from my heart centre is a vital part of this lifting, whirling experience. By breathing deeply, dropping awareness down into my heart, feeling this ever-present expanding love, I can begin to move into a state of joy.  This experience was lost to me for awhile after my operation, but once again I am able work with the energy of my inner life.  These sensations are stimulated by an alteration in breathing, so it becomes slower and much deeper. This then lifts my level of frequency, raising vibration, moving me into a different awareness. Such a state or ability is available to all of us.  It can occur as we move into our heart centre and begin to raise our vibratory level; it can alter our inner vision; it can eliminate all awareness of physicality, both environmental and physical and it can move us into a field of loving consciousness so divine it moves beyond language.

Here I am not talking flow, or what the philosopher Mihaly Csikszent and many others have written about. In his thesis Mihaly is examines to the root cause of happiness, investigating the human condition with regards to ecstatic experiences.  Consequently, his term ‘flow’ is now becoming part of a new language of transformation being used by many philosophical investigators. Flow springs from a state of being where one is so transformed by one’s creative flow that one loses contact with everyday awareness. Maslow called this a ‘peak experience’. It is when we begin to feel non-existent as we merge with our creative force. I have been transfixed in this way more than once. Time disappears, self-awareness disappears, and one becomes part of what is being created. It’s a transformative experience and it would be wonderful if we could all move in and out of this level of awareness but it is not what I am talking about here.

What I feel we need to try to experience is a reality where we enter a state of ecstasy as we lift into an overwhelmingly passionate state of joy; where everything is transformed into the field of Love and we begin to know who we really are. By experiencing this elusive divine self our concept of reality is altered for ever. This is too vast for me to even describe for it is beyond this 3rd density existence. Within our everyday life we can enjoy the magnificence of creativity, but we are still trapped in this realm. At this higher level we move away from our physicality and experience our personal field of divine energy. We discover who we are, and it is cosmic. This changes our consciousness for ever even if we are still living in this world.

If we, as Humanity, are to bring about change, moving to a finer level of existence then we need to become aware of our divinity – dare I say … God.  We have the power. We are in charge. Down through the ages we have always allowed life to simply roll on, always giving way to what has been done in the past, always knowing that this is normality, this is our reality, this is how it will always be. Through a collective agreement we continue to create the societies we live in therefore everything always stays the same. But with full understanding of our power we can bring about change by altering this overall thought form. Mankind can alter its frequency. We humans can raise our vibratory rate, thereby lifting ourselves out of this present density. We can choose to do this. For the first time in eons there are enough of us on the planet to break free of the old ways. There are many teachers now showing us various methods of raising consciousness. It does not mean the entire human population must do this! No! If a certain percentage of us can alter our conscious state, this will collapse the status quo creating a new collective human agreement and the illusion we live in will change. Raising our consciousness in order to discover our divinity is what is being asked of most people reading this blog. We do not need to turn to the next person demanding they act, all it needs is for each of us to begin the process of altering our own frequency, thereby raising the overall vibration of everybody.

There are warnings that if this change does not occur, the dreadful damage we have done to both our planet and to each other will cause a catastrophe. Science is aware that a mass extinction event is overdue. The Humanity has collapsed like this before. There have been other mass extinctions, and now we are again in trouble, but this time there does seem to be a growing awareness of the power we possess. We can lift ourselves up to a new level. We can change our state of consciousness. There is still time.


























The Power of Words


The last day of 2017.  A year I am determined to put behind me because the heart by-pass operation has caused another bout of panic, giving me a renewed awareness of the torment one can suffer if out of touch with one’s deeper self. The physical and emotional shock of the operation opened up old wounds; a chasm of fear that so many of us are trying to deal with was spilling out its horror, making me realise all over again just how dangerous this state is. Fear will induce more fear so one becomes a victim of one’s own thought process, but I knew fear could not exist in the same sphere as love, so I was valiantly trying to remain centred in my heart. It was not working very well, and my doctor was pushing me to start a course of anti-depressant medication, but just at this vital juncture the publisher sent me copies of my book ‘A Small Book of Comfort’. In my fear-based state, the simple reminder that I had written an entire book dealing with depression, anxiety and panic attacks seemed quite bizarre but as I opened the book I was filled with delight for I realised that each dialogue, although written by me, had been developed from insights that stemmed from a far more profound and cosmic intelligence. For some reason I had been given methods of assistance that were universal. As I realised the healing power of the text was available to anybody I began to absorb what was written – and was instantly helped. I know this must sound strange, that someone might use their own book as a source of healing, but this is what is happening. By simply reading the book at times of stress I am well on the way to recovery – without pills! Like a healing balm, surges of joy and happiness can overwhelm me, and familiar feelings of universal love are once again available at any time. Of course, these indicators are allowing me to leave the fear behind, nevertheless it does show how some of us, living in this 3rd dimensional world can be constantly challenged and my heart goes out to all those who are struggling.

This is not a sales pitch nor a promotional gimmick, the synchronicity of a heart attack, a by-pass operation then a bout of anxiety co-existing alongside the release of my book is a pivotal experience. I am being helped and now have a passionate wish that others might receive the same.


Bypassing The Intelligence of the Heart

It has been a few months since I last posted here – a traumatic time in hospital enduring heart bypass surgery and then more lost time in the aftermath, enduring physical shock and emotional stress.

The effort it is taking to pull myself out of this quagmire is exhausting but the other day, while listening to a medical lecture detailing the bypass procedure it suddenly dawned on me that my heart was actually suffering a huge trauma. It had been taken out of my body and placed in some type of mechanised apparatus whilst the repair to the arteries was being done. Up until this lecture I had avoided all information about the surgery because it was so threatening, but as I sat there, no longer able to avoid the details, I felt the tears welling up. I recognised that my heart was still suffering from this invasion. At long last I understood what I was  actually feeling.  The centre of love and intelligence within in my physical body was still recovering from the traumatic disturbance. This was why I – and so many others –  felt this emotional pain.

The people at Heart Math, and any reader of the book The Heart’s Code will have a complete understanding the heart’s intelligence, and I feel it is vital to the understanding of our physical awareness that we acknowledge the magnificence of our heart.  In all my exercises and meditations to reach the inner planes of consciousness my prime movement has always been to drop down into my heart, and to feel the love springing up from this area. I must admit though, since the operation I have struggled to meditate, or to even reach my heart centre sometimes but sitting there listening to this medical explanation it all started to make sense.

As I realised the importance of this I tried to explain to the lecturer why so many people suffer such emotional upheaval after bypass surgery, but she simply smiled politely and continued with her talk. It would seem that a large section of the medical fraternity still does not realise this hidden yet powerful function of the human heart.

As I write this now I am trying to regain contact with my heart. I feel incredibly stupid for taking so long to realise why I am suffering, but the simple act of writing this down feels good and if I can regain the intimacy I used to have with this vital intelligence, I will have found myself again.


The Dimensions of Consciousness


I posted this quote by Robert Munroe on face-book: “We are expressions of energy. Consciousness is focused energy. Energy focused is exponential. Consciousness is a form of energy at work – end quote: The feedback told me that these ideas were beyond some people’s comprehension, which has led me to write this blog. When Munroe says that our consciousness is focused energy, his idea goes a long way towards describing something that science still cannot grasp – consciousness as focused energy, and as this intensity of energy gathers into one focal point, it could be called ‘consciousness’.  He is saying that as this energy increases in its power and extent it forms what we know as consciousness and that consciousness is energy at work. If we can accept that we are a conglomerate of energy crossing many dimensional barriers, then we can start to see how consciousness is the focal point keeping the interplay of energy within a workable structure.

In my meditations, I have begun to comprehend the complex filament system that exists within the human structure. We have a multitude of interacting layers of energy, from the very physical third density, through to the fragile, transient, ephemeral dimensions that seem to flicker and alternate even as my awareness touches them. So, we are a massive energy system which is constantly merging with a multitude of other energetic forms and as Robert Munroe has pointed out – the focal point is consciousness.

This next comment may not seem relevant, but stay with me. Yesterday I listened to a man describing what he had obviously experienced. Hmm ….. as I listened I asked myself, how can we dismiss this when so much of what we thought was impossible is now demanding our attention? He spoke about the complex structure of alien space ships. He said that some of these ships exist across dimensions, explaining that the outside of the ship may appear in one dimension, but inside it exists on another level (or on many levels). This reminded me of Dr Who’s phone box. Small on the outside but once inside it becomes enormous. This man said that their ships can exist in more than one dimension and that the fluid nature of the surrounding energy can overwhelm a solid three-dimensional body. The mind-expanding descriptions of how some technology can operate in realities beyond this solid third dimension is both exciting and challenging because this information is telling us to move our minds past what we doggedly believe is real. Also, this ‘experiencer’ of alien technology commented on the fact that these advanced beings have the ability to bend time/space, altering time at will; also they can meddle with the holographic state of our reality, which is a little unnerving.  In the past, these science fictional concepts have been almost impossible to comprehend, but letting go of society’s rigid perceptions enables us to accept much of what Quantum Physics is telling us, so that time, space, energy fields, even brain structure takes on a new truth

To emphasis this point about the brain, consciousness, and our multilayered reality, Science tells us…and I quote: Using mathematics in a novel way in neuroscience, the Blue Brain Project demonstrates that the brain operates on many dimensions, not just the three dimensions we are accustomed to. They have uncovered a universe of multi- dimensional geometrical structures and spaces within the networks of the brain – up to eleven dimensions.

I guess none of this matters as we live out our daily lives, but once one moves out of this reality – via meditation, OBE, NDE, or visualisations, one is given the opportunity to expand one’s understanding of how this mysterious world works. We are constantly moving in and out of our multidimensional world and I feel that knowing this can help us unravel the mysteries of who we are and perhaps how to open up to the divine aspect pulsating behind everything.
























Beyond Identity

Jurgen Ziewe – – is another person making this journey beyond identity. I listened to an interview he did with Rick Archer of Buddha at the Gas Pump fame, and most of what he was describing I too am experiencing, except that Jurgen has taken a further immense and supreme leap towards transformation – something we need to understand fully.

To begin, he spoke about how he used to be dissatisfied with mediation. In a weird way I felt a deep relief. I was thankful for his honesty. This was because I too changed my focus when mediation was not giving me the expanse I was seeking. These days I simply go into a state where I make contact with ‘A Presence’. I even know that this sacred, wise and divine presence is my Higher Self. The phenomena I first knew as the All Pervading Intelligence all those years ago, is indeed my higher self (Soul). Jurgen Ziewe seems to have a similar experience and although he is much  further along on his journey, his profound occurrences seemed to have taken place over a time period similar to mine – around forty years. Again,  I find this helpful. We all need to know, or be reassured that we are on the right path.

It was during a recent experience, as he moved into a vital, very important state of being, that Jurgen began to feel really fearful.  He had gone into retreat and in this isolation he began to understand he was facing the knowledge that soon he would lose his identity. Knowing this, as the abyss opened up, he was afraid to enter. Afterwards, as his meditative state faded, Jurgen felt ashamed because of what he perceived as cowardice. The thing that he had been working towards all his life, had been offered but he had backed away in fear. This fear is so understandable. Many seekers speak about the challengers faced as they move towards enlightenment. Anyway, very gradually Jurgen was guided toward merging into this new state.  It seems that he is now living in the same type of reality as Susan Segal  (and many others).  The ego has gone and with it any awareness of identity.

I found Jurgen Ziewe’s commentary profoundly helpful because I am just on the outside of such an experience. There is a full understanding of what is involved but I guess I have to do it my way. For instance, during my pondering today, as I thought about Jurgen’s experience, I found myself facing a door in my heart. It was open and I could see out beyond the entrance but all there was, was space. I was looking at eternity and I could feel how dangerous this was. To step out into nothing, into eternity, would annihilate me. It was the perfect image for loss of self, loss of identity, loss of all that I know as an ego. I looked out into this emptiness and knew what others mean when they talk about the abyss. But using Jurgen’s experience,  as a helpful guide eased him into his new state, I feel perhaps – once I get the courage to step out into eternity – that I too will be guided, that I will not die or disappear; that it won’t be the frightful experience I am fearing as I contemplate my next step.

Another insight has just been triggered by Jurgen Ziewe’s conversation with Rick Archer. I now realise that my visualisations are equivalent insights gained in the out of the body experiences. I don’t know how many people have these intuitive insights which, through visualisation provide a metaphor which give’s vital information that had been locked away behind one’s mental barrier. Listening to both William Buhlman and Jurgen when they explain that their explorations of other realms – as they move through their OBE – gives them understanding via what appears to be a real event, but is in fact a living metaphor, tells me our guidance is very similar. My visualisations have always given me enormous insight. The newest one – the door in my heart for instance – is a metaphor for entering the emptiness of loss of self.

The insight given us by Jurgen Ziewe and others assures us that ego death is not the end of one’s life in this reality. I think this knowledge is profoundly important for the ones following in such esteemed footsteps. Without doubt, more and more of us are reaching out towards this pinnacle; a phenomena I believe is living proof of the change humanity is now experiencing.





Susan’s Legacy

To continue on from my last blog, examining the remarkable writing of  Susan Segal.

Susan’s experience is so unusual, so mind-bending, that I feel it is crucial information if we are seeking to understand how we process our awareness of who we are and how we function in this illusion we know as existence. She speaks of ‘the witness’ which is an internal aspect, often overlooked or ignored by many but which is a necessary part of who we are. We are not talking here about the cruel voice in one’s head; that harping demand insisting we are useless, that we should do better and not to be so stupid.  No! that ugliness is our conditioned response gone haywire and should be shut down as soon as possible. The witness Susan writes about is an awareness that seems to sit outside our daily exploits, observing but not interfering. It sits inside all of us, though many remain unaware of its existence. In my case I find it very hard to separate my daily functions from what I am really doing deep inside so I’m constantly aware of my witness. She is a full partner in my world. In Susan’s case a vital change took place when her witness moved beyond the zone of her physicality. Suddenly she felt it was observing her day to day activities from outside her body and although the intelligence of the body continued to run her physical life, from her ego/mind perspective Susan was panic stricken by this split. She felt out of control. Indeed, it felt so serious she was sure that without this witness she would not be able to continue living. Of course, as she did, nevertheless she was terrified.

This idea, that without our witness’s interaction we would cease to function, is staggering, but from my viewpoint, understandable for I feel sure that all our thoughts and actions are in lock-step with our witness. Such an entity might be just observing but obviously it is some type of support mechanism. So does this mean that in some way the mind must be the servant of the witness? This felt very strange to me. For somebody to believe they needed their witness in order to maintain existence is a huge statement. It tells us that the ego/mind actually knows it is not in control. Was this phenomena strictly Susan’s experience or does this apply to all of us? It hard to say, but in my own case, I am not sure how I would react if suddenly this very familiar entity suddenly moved beyond my reality.

Examining Susan’s account a little further we can itemize 3 powerful events.

  • Her witness moved out of the body-mind complex.
  • When her witness totally disappeared, Susan lost her identity.
  • Through an extraordinary awareness, Susan discovered she was moving through herself, in other words, she was the world.

The first 2 events have given us an astounding insight into how we might function. It appears that the ego-mind needs the security of the witness to be able to maintain an identity in this dimension. Though this is profound, I am not sure how many people are aware of this part of the self that oversees the life being led in this dimension. Perhaps some people reading this will question such an idea but I think the vast majority of us are quite aware of our witness. I first bumped up against my witness when I started to explore my own creativity. I was completing a degree in Ceramic Design, and the demands of the course opened up a hidden part of me. That’s when I became aware of being watched from within. It was not judgmental, nor was it is sympathetic; this witness simply observed all that I was doing – and still does! These days I am reassured and comforted by this presence, so I can understand how fearful Susan was when suddenly her witness moved beyond her daily movements.

The second huge event was when the witness disappeared from Susan’s life altogether. This is when all awareness of having an identity disappeared. This is remarkable on many levels. That her witness would disappear is amazing in itself, and immediately makes us question the stability of our own state. Although I am aware of my witness, I have not explored its inclination or its purpose. In Susan’s case when it vanished she became free of her identity, free of all the conditioning, free of ego. She found she was functioning inside her greater self and felt the oneness of the whole. Obviously, once the identity goes then the awareness of who we really are can begin to seep into our being. It is dawning on me that maybe the ego/mind needs the security of the witness to be able to maintain it identity. When the witness goes this world we know suddenly changes! Staggering!

Once again, the idea of ceasing to exist is before us. But no in a fearful way. For Susan, once she was able live without the constrains of an identity, she expanded to such a degree that one day as she drove down the road she realised that she was driving through herself! What an enormous revelation! To be able to feel and understand that she was the world. In today’s society such a transformation is what many of us are seeking, but who knows how or when this phenomenon will occur? When Lester Levinson broke through the dream-state of the ego/mind, time and space changed and he was able to see what his friend was doing thousands of miles away. This is a quote from his biography:….. as he looked his body seemed small and distant sitting in its chair. He could see it there if he chose, but he felt himself spread across the entire universe; that body was only an infinitesimal speck in the vastness that he was. He was omnipresent There was no travel, only a thought, and he was there – end of quote.

Over the centuries many have made this powerful transition;  many have been able to move past the limitations of this reality. It depends on our mental structure – how the mind functions. If we can work with consciousness so it flows through the electro-chemical impediment holding us in the dream we must eventually escape.

This is the legacy Susan Segal left us.


















What Is Identity


I am reading Susan Segal’s writing again. I know I have blogged about this before but her story is a revelation, offering us information we all need at this time. She tells of when she became detached from her physical functions meaning she found herself permanently outside her mind – similar to the time I popped out of my body and watched myself drinking coffee. Of course I quickly scurried back into my mind…whoever ‘I’ is? But Susan never did.

Here is a quote from her writing: There was the sense of being on an edge of sorts, a boundary between existing and not existing, and the mind believed that if it did not maintain the thought of existence, existence itself would cease. Charged with this apparently life-or-death directive, the mind struggled to hold that thought, only to exhaust itself after several fitful hours. The mind was in agony as it tried valiantly to make sense of something it could never comprehend, and the body responded to the anguish of the mind by locking itself into survival mode, adrenaline pumping, senses fine-tuned, finding and responding to the threat of annihilation in every moment…  end quote.

I am asking – what/who was the mind that was in such agony? Does she mean the ego was in agony, but then how do we separate the mind from the ego, are they not the same thing? This is a living example of the existence of other parts of the ‘self’, parts that are separate from the body/mind! The fact that the mind/ego thinks that it is the awareness that keeps us living is a powerful indicator of the complexity of our existence as a physical being so it is obvious that Susan’s experience and her ability to put it on paper is a wonderful lesson, proving that most of us know very little about this life we are living.

After a few months of Susan witnessing her own movements through life, her witness disappeared. This was when Susan’s identity also disappeared. Here we have another crucial lesson. One’s identity is fully attached to one’s mental awareness, and this is what we think life is!  We obey this physical mind; the thing churning out thoughts; the thing reinforcing the ego’s mastery over existence; the thing limiting us to a programmed belief system; the thing directing all thoughts and emotion: we believe that this is who we are. When nobody was left to witness this mental process Susan lost her identity. But she did not die. She did not go mad. She was still able to function as a human being, she simply did not have an identity. Her fear was enormous because the physical mind was screaming for answers. This tells us that even if our identity disappears, there is still a physical, functioning mind and in Susan’s case, that was terrified. I am very aware of this physical intelligence. I have built in fears that come up when there is the smallest threat to my physical well being. Usually I’m able to calm this panic by reminding myself that I am much more than a body, nevertheless the initial reaction of terror causes all sorts of physical trauma. The fact I am able to calm my body fits in well with Susan’s description of a witness standing outside the physical intelligence.

Eventually, after years of panic, Susan moved into another state of being. This was when she discovered that she was ‘Everything’. She was not a singular identity – that had disappeared; she was not her body, that too had been overridden. No, she was something else altogether! Her full understanding fell into place one day as she drove through the woods. It must have an amazing revelation for her as she realized that she was driving through herself. This is so profound I am only able to grasp the edges of her realization.

This is what Susan eventually wrote: Quote – I am the Infinite–no personal reference point–the substance of everything; I am the Vastness that is everyone and everything. And, I must add here, never for a moment does the awareness of that Infinite substance that is everything ever move out of the foreground of awareness whether there is waking, dreaming or sleeping states of consciousness occurring in the circuitry. There is no where for it to go. Where could it go? It is constant, every moment experience…….. There was a shift from no personal self, no “me,” to seeing that this experience of no personal self was actually the substance of everything. That is when the springtime began with the quality of joyfulness to it. What I can describe about what is being experienced currently, is residing in the Infinite within which the Infinite resides. There is no end point in all this. We are talking about the Vastness. It is very large. It continues to show Itself and show Itself.





Merging with other lives



As energy, we are constantly vibrating; constantly interacting with the various filaments of ourselves. Although most of us are unaware of of how we really function, we are constantly weaving in and out of the many dimensions of ‘the self’. At a certain level, far below the conscious mind, but still of great influence to our reality, we experience our friends in this same way, interacting, overlapping and harmonizing with a multitude of vibrating energies, distorting their world as we see it through our eyes, and automatically merging with their frequencies levels whenever we tune into their bandwidth. We judge them, we play with them, we love or hate them, and all this emotion is threaded through our reality. These are transparent realities that we move through,  surrounded by a multiplicity of probable realities, but such subconscious interactions are hardly noticed on the surface of our lives. Nevertheless, once we can grasp the fact that much of who we think we are is a nothing more than a transparency and that identity is ego based, then we can begin to understand the complexity of our life. We are not the solidly fixed, predicable person we think we are, and to add to this complexity, the life we are presently aware of is not the only life we are living. As Krishnamurti and many other tell us – we are living all our lives at once

A bold statement, and one which I have struggled with for years.  Yet once we understand the vagaries of time and space this statement becomes a little easier to accept. Looking at this question from a scientific perspective, they have begun to accept that in this reality, the mind processes events along a linear timeline; indeed, we could say the mind creates time for beyond this realm time/space does not exist. These are claims many people have refused to embrace, but then let’s not forget that we are energy, and as such we continually evolve through many layers of existence. Thousands of people remember their past lives, but naturally, because their thoughts are being processes in this 3rd dimensional reality, their memory is linear. When reviewing their past lives they are sure that a life lived in the 15th century must come before a life lived during the 1st world war, or a life lived around the time of Jesus must have taken place long before men walked on the moon, but once we move away from this realm we find that each life is being lived concurrently within its own field of energy. This complex layering system is built inside millions of energy fields; some spiraling around each other, others fitting together like a geometric series of boxes, one inside the other and all pulsing as if breathing. Sometimes the frequencies of these fields overlap, sometimes they collide or merge, but in the main these fields vibrate on their own bandwidth within the realm of probability. We solidify a reality when we consciousness think about it so everything we has an element of intangibility to it.

For those of us who have the imaginative ability to move through or across these realms we can view our lives outside of time. In each life, we will find an aspect of’ the self’ that has been created to develop a particular reality. All of these lives are personified by one’s higher self, and all of them create a life experience that enables us to develop an awareness of who and what we are. There is no such thing as karma, it is simply the see-saw effect of the lives we choose to lead, for very often we live through both aspects of a situation. Once we can accept this it is a little easier to understand how each of our lives can dovetail into the life we are leading here. We can be emotionally effected here and now, not only by the events of this life, but also by other lives. It is helpful to recognise how those other experiences can actually instigate events in our present reality. Everything is connected. Everything is as it should be. Our other lives can be viewed as completely separate, or as experiences that can influence this life – it is our choice. If we are willing to consider these ideas, then we can use our imagination to guide us towards an intimate and profound healing.

I make this statement because I personally have had enormous assistance. For years, I have knowledge and information about a few of my other lives, but usually when I viewed these events they felt a little like scenes in a movie. Then one night when I saw myself as a brutal captain of a sailing ship, I was able to understand enough of his life to have a sad feeling of forgiveness – so even though I was shocked, I managed to accept him and with great feeling I envisioned wrapping my arms around this bully. There was such an outpouring of love and grief it was as if this make-believe event of compassion had really happened. I sat with this experience for months not knowing how to interact with characters in my other lives. Also around this time, I began to fully understand the power of the heart. By learning how to drop down into my heart and by learning how to listen to its wisdom I have begun to be guided by this beautiful intelligence. I have also noticed that when I become stressed or intellectually dogmatic the heart’s message is drowned out by this emotional noise. Compassion and love are the by-lines of the heart’s manifesto and with this new understanding, I have been able to once again interact with myself in my other lives. Now I simply overlay my heart in this reality with myself there, and in each case when contact is made I feel waves of love and joy which lasts for many hours. In one traumatic life I saw how I was isolated in the Canadian wilderness, my trapper husband had disappeared, and I was unable to provide for my children. In this life I was in a deep almost unreachable depression so it took many tries before I could awaken her heart. But when I eventually made contact it was like I had reached someone on a telephone.  I was able to speak with her, calm her, indicate that she was not forgotten, and that her children’s love would sustain her. I felt an immediate change in her so I continued to merge our hearts.  I know she will die out there in the wildness, and that her children will learn how to survive, but when she does die love will surround her instead of the deadened coldness of her emotional state before we made contact.

These experiences have fired up my present life. I’m excited by the knowledge that we can influence lives we are living in other realities and I am grateful to be able to interact with my higher self in this way. These current experiences have confirmed my intuitive understanding about the fragile nature of these other worlds. They exist only if we can move out of the density of this reality and begin to use our imagination, our inner vision and our intuition to perceive realms that are so close they are but a heartbeat from us. To be able to drop down into our heart and trust this intelligence is the key to opening the door to the soul, and the experience of  Unconditional Love can be the result.