Bypassing The Intelligence of the Heart

It has been a few months since I last posted here – a traumatic time in hospital enduring heart bypass surgery and then more lost time in the aftermath, enduring physical shock and emotional stress.

The effort it is taking to pull myself out of this quagmire is exhausting but the other day, while listening to a medical lecture detailing the bypass procedure it suddenly dawned on me that my heart was actually suffering a huge trauma. It had been taken out of my body and placed in some type of mechanised apparatus whilst the repair to the arteries was being done. Up until this lecture I had avoided all information about the surgery because it was so threatening, but as I sat there, no longer able to avoid the details, I felt the tears welling up. I recognised that my heart was still suffering from this invasion. At long last I understood what I was  actually feeling.  The centre of love and intelligence within in my physical body was still recovering from the traumatic disturbance. This was why I – and so many others –  felt this emotional pain.

The people at Heart Math, and any reader of the book The Heart’s Code will have a complete understanding the heart’s intelligence, and I feel it is vital to the understanding of our physical awareness that we acknowledge the magnificence of our heart.  In all my exercises and meditations to reach the inner planes of consciousness my prime movement has always been to drop down into my heart, and to feel the love springing up from this area. I must admit though, since the operation I have struggled to meditate, or to even reach my heart centre sometimes but sitting there listening to this medical explanation it all started to make sense.

As I realised the importance of this I tried to explain to the lecturer why so many people suffer such emotional upheaval after bypass surgery, but she simply smiled politely and continued with her talk. It would seem that a large section of the medical fraternity still does not realise this hidden yet powerful function of the human heart.

As I write this now I am trying to regain contact with my heart. I feel incredibly stupid for taking so long to realise why I am suffering, but the simple act of writing this down feels good and if I can regain the intimacy I used to have with this vital intelligence, I will have found myself again.


The Dimensions of Consciousness


I posted this quote by Robert Munroe on face-book: “We are expressions of energy. Consciousness is focused energy. Energy focused is exponential. Consciousness is a form of energy at work – end quote: The feedback told me that these ideas were beyond some people’s comprehension, which has led me to write this blog. When Munroe says that our consciousness is focused energy, his idea goes a long way towards describing something that science still cannot grasp – consciousness as focused energy, and as this intensity of energy gathers into one focal point, it could be called ‘consciousness’.  He is saying that as this energy increases in its power and extent it forms what we know as consciousness and that consciousness is energy at work. If we can accept that we are a conglomerate of energy crossing many dimensional barriers, then we can start to see how consciousness is the focal point keeping the interplay of energy within a workable structure.

In my meditations, I have begun to comprehend the complex filament system that exists within the human structure. We have a multitude of interacting layers of energy, from the very physical third density, through to the fragile, transient, ephemeral dimensions that seem to flicker and alternate even as my awareness touches them. So, we are a massive energy system which is constantly merging with a multitude of other energetic forms and as Robert Munroe has pointed out – the focal point is consciousness.

This next comment may not seem relevant, but stay with me. Yesterday I listened to a man describing what he had obviously experienced. Hmm ….. as I listened I asked myself, how can we dismiss this when so much of what we thought was impossible is now demanding our attention? He spoke about the complex structure of alien space ships. He said that some of these ships exist across dimensions, explaining that the outside of the ship may appear in one dimension, but inside it exists on another level (or on many levels). This reminded me of Dr Who’s phone box. Small on the outside but once inside it becomes enormous. This man said that their ships can exist in more than one dimension and that the fluid nature of the surrounding energy can overwhelm a solid three-dimensional body. The mind-expanding descriptions of how some technology can operate in realities beyond this solid third dimension is both exciting and challenging because this information is telling us to move our minds past what we doggedly believe is real. Also, this ‘experiencer’ of alien technology commented on the fact that these advanced beings have the ability to bend time/space, altering time at will; also they can meddle with the holographic state of our reality, which is a little unnerving.  In the past, these science fictional concepts have been almost impossible to comprehend, but letting go of society’s rigid perceptions enables us to accept much of what Quantum Physics is telling us, so that time, space, energy fields, even brain structure takes on a new truth

To emphasis this point about the brain, consciousness, and our multilayered reality, Science tells us…and I quote: Using mathematics in a novel way in neuroscience, the Blue Brain Project demonstrates that the brain operates on many dimensions, not just the three dimensions we are accustomed to. They have uncovered a universe of multi- dimensional geometrical structures and spaces within the networks of the brain – up to eleven dimensions.

I guess none of this matters as we live out our daily lives, but once one moves out of this reality – via meditation, OBE, NDE, or visualisations, one is given the opportunity to expand one’s understanding of how this mysterious world works. We are constantly moving in and out of our multidimensional world and I feel that knowing this can help us unravel the mysteries of who we are and perhaps how to open up to the divine aspect pulsating behind everything.
























Beyond Identity

Jurgen Ziewe – – is another person making this journey beyond identity. I listened to an interview he did with Rick Archer of Buddha at the Gas Pump fame, and most of what he was describing I too am experiencing, except that Jurgen has taken a further immense and supreme leap towards transformation – something we need to understand fully.

To begin, he spoke about how he used to be dissatisfied with mediation. In a weird way I felt a deep relief. I was thankful for his honesty. This was because I too changed my focus when mediation was not giving me the expanse I was seeking. These days I simply go into a state where I make contact with ‘A Presence’. I even know that this sacred, wise and divine presence is my Higher Self. The phenomena I first knew as the All Pervading Intelligence all those years ago, is indeed my higher self (Soul). Jurgen Ziewe seems to have a similar experience and although he is much  further along on his journey, his profound occurrences seemed to have taken place over a time period similar to mine – around forty years. Again,  I find this helpful. We all need to know, or be reassured that we are on the right path.

It was during a recent experience, as he moved into a vital, very important state of being, that Jurgen began to feel really fearful.  He had gone into retreat and in this isolation he began to understand he was facing the knowledge that soon he would lose his identity. Knowing this, as the abyss opened up, he was afraid to enter. Afterwards, as his meditative state faded, Jurgen felt ashamed because of what he perceived as cowardice. The thing that he had been working towards all his life, had been offered but he had backed away in fear. This fear is so understandable. Many seekers speak about the challengers faced as they move towards enlightenment. Anyway, very gradually Jurgen was guided toward merging into this new state.  It seems that he is now living in the same type of reality as Susan Segal  (and many others).  The ego has gone and with it any awareness of identity.

I found Jurgen Ziewe’s commentary profoundly helpful because I am just on the outside of such an experience. There is a full understanding of what is involved but I guess I have to do it my way. For instance, during my pondering today, as I thought about Jurgen’s experience, I found myself facing a door in my heart. It was open and I could see out beyond the entrance but all there was, was space. I was looking at eternity and I could feel how dangerous this was. To step out into nothing, into eternity, would annihilate me. It was the perfect image for loss of self, loss of identity, loss of all that I know as an ego. I looked out into this emptiness and knew what others mean when they talk about the abyss. But using Jurgen’s experience,  as a helpful guide eased him into his new state, I feel perhaps – once I get the courage to step out into eternity – that I too will be guided, that I will not die or disappear; that it won’t be the frightful experience I am fearing as I contemplate my next step.

Another insight has just been triggered by Jurgen Ziewe’s conversation with Rick Archer. I now realise that my visualisations are equivalent insights gained in the out of the body experiences. I don’t know how many people have these intuitive insights which, through visualisation provide a metaphor which give’s vital information that had been locked away behind one’s mental barrier. Listening to both William Buhlman and Jurgen when they explain that their explorations of other realms – as they move through their OBE – gives them understanding via what appears to be a real event, but is in fact a living metaphor, tells me our guidance is very similar. My visualisations have always given me enormous insight. The newest one – the door in my heart for instance – is a metaphor for entering the emptiness of loss of self.

The insight given us by Jurgen Ziewe and others assures us that ego death is not the end of one’s life in this reality. I think this knowledge is profoundly important for the ones following in such esteemed footsteps. Without doubt, more and more of us are reaching out towards this pinnacle; a phenomena I believe is living proof of the change humanity is now experiencing.





Susan’s Legacy

To continue on from my last blog, examining the remarkable writing of  Susan Segal.

Susan’s experience is so unusual, so mind-bending, that I feel it is crucial information if we are seeking to understand how we process our awareness of who we are and how we function in this illusion we know as existence. She speaks of ‘the witness’ which is an internal aspect, often overlooked or ignored by many but which is a necessary part of who we are. We are not talking here about the cruel voice in one’s head; that harping demand insisting we are useless, that we should do better and not to be so stupid.  No! that ugliness is our conditioned response gone haywire and should be shut down as soon as possible. The witness Susan writes about is an awareness that seems to sit outside our daily exploits, observing but not interfering. It sits inside all of us, though many remain unaware of its existence. In my case I find it very hard to separate my daily functions from what I am really doing deep inside so I’m constantly aware of my witness. She is a full partner in my world. In Susan’s case a vital change took place when her witness moved beyond the zone of her physicality. Suddenly she felt it was observing her day to day activities from outside her body and although the intelligence of the body continued to run her physical life, from her ego/mind perspective Susan was panic stricken by this split. She felt out of control. Indeed, it felt so serious she was sure that without this witness she would not be able to continue living. Of course, as she did, nevertheless she was terrified.

This idea, that without our witness’s interaction we would cease to function, is staggering, but from my viewpoint, understandable for I feel sure that all our thoughts and actions are in lock-step with our witness. Such an entity might be just observing but obviously it is some type of support mechanism. So does this mean that in some way the mind must be the servant of the witness? This felt very strange to me. For somebody to believe they needed their witness in order to maintain existence is a huge statement. It tells us that the ego/mind actually knows it is not in control. Was this phenomena strictly Susan’s experience or does this apply to all of us? It hard to say, but in my own case, I am not sure how I would react if suddenly this very familiar entity suddenly moved beyond my reality.

Examining Susan’s account a little further we can itemize 3 powerful events.

  • Her witness moved out of the body-mind complex.
  • When her witness totally disappeared, Susan lost her identity.
  • Through an extraordinary awareness, Susan discovered she was moving through herself, in other words, she was the world.

The first 2 events have given us an astounding insight into how we might function. It appears that the ego-mind needs the security of the witness to be able to maintain an identity in this dimension. Though this is profound, I am not sure how many people are aware of this part of the self that oversees the life being led in this dimension. Perhaps some people reading this will question such an idea but I think the vast majority of us are quite aware of our witness. I first bumped up against my witness when I started to explore my own creativity. I was completing a degree in Ceramic Design, and the demands of the course opened up a hidden part of me. That’s when I became aware of being watched from within. It was not judgmental, nor was it is sympathetic; this witness simply observed all that I was doing – and still does! These days I am reassured and comforted by this presence, so I can understand how fearful Susan was when suddenly her witness moved beyond her daily movements.

The second huge event was when the witness disappeared from Susan’s life altogether. This is when all awareness of having an identity disappeared. This is remarkable on many levels. That her witness would disappear is amazing in itself, and immediately makes us question the stability of our own state. Although I am aware of my witness, I have not explored its inclination or its purpose. In Susan’s case when it vanished she became free of her identity, free of all the conditioning, free of ego. She found she was functioning inside her greater self and felt the oneness of the whole. Obviously, once the identity goes then the awareness of who we really are can begin to seep into our being. It is dawning on me that maybe the ego/mind needs the security of the witness to be able to maintain it identity. When the witness goes this world we know suddenly changes! Staggering!

Once again, the idea of ceasing to exist is before us. But no in a fearful way. For Susan, once she was able live without the constrains of an identity, she expanded to such a degree that one day as she drove down the road she realised that she was driving through herself! What an enormous revelation! To be able to feel and understand that she was the world. In today’s society such a transformation is what many of us are seeking, but who knows how or when this phenomenon will occur? When Lester Levinson broke through the dream-state of the ego/mind, time and space changed and he was able to see what his friend was doing thousands of miles away. This is a quote from his biography:….. as he looked his body seemed small and distant sitting in its chair. He could see it there if he chose, but he felt himself spread across the entire universe; that body was only an infinitesimal speck in the vastness that he was. He was omnipresent There was no travel, only a thought, and he was there – end of quote.

Over the centuries many have made this powerful transition;  many have been able to move past the limitations of this reality. It depends on our mental structure – how the mind functions. If we can work with consciousness so it flows through the electro-chemical impediment holding us in the dream we must eventually escape.

This is the legacy Susan Segal left us.


















What Is Identity


I am reading Susan Segal’s writing again. I know I have blogged about this before but her story is a revelation, offering us information we all need at this time. She tells of when she became detached from her physical functions meaning she found herself permanently outside her mind – similar to the time I popped out of my body and watched myself drinking coffee. Of course I quickly scurried back into my mind…whoever ‘I’ is? But Susan never did.

Here is a quote from her writing: There was the sense of being on an edge of sorts, a boundary between existing and not existing, and the mind believed that if it did not maintain the thought of existence, existence itself would cease. Charged with this apparently life-or-death directive, the mind struggled to hold that thought, only to exhaust itself after several fitful hours. The mind was in agony as it tried valiantly to make sense of something it could never comprehend, and the body responded to the anguish of the mind by locking itself into survival mode, adrenaline pumping, senses fine-tuned, finding and responding to the threat of annihilation in every moment…  end quote.

I am asking – what/who was the mind that was in such agony? Does she mean the ego was in agony, but then how do we separate the mind from the ego, are they not the same thing? This is a living example of the existence of other parts of the ‘self’, parts that are separate from the body/mind! The fact that the mind/ego thinks that it is the awareness that keeps us living is a powerful indicator of the complexity of our existence as a physical being so it is obvious that Susan’s experience and her ability to put it on paper is a wonderful lesson, proving that most of us know very little about this life we are living.

After a few months of Susan witnessing her own movements through life, her witness disappeared. This was when Susan’s identity also disappeared. Here we have another crucial lesson. One’s identity is fully attached to one’s mental awareness, and this is what we think life is!  We obey this physical mind; the thing churning out thoughts; the thing reinforcing the ego’s mastery over existence; the thing limiting us to a programmed belief system; the thing directing all thoughts and emotion: we believe that this is who we are. When nobody was left to witness this mental process Susan lost her identity. But she did not die. She did not go mad. She was still able to function as a human being, she simply did not have an identity. Her fear was enormous because the physical mind was screaming for answers. This tells us that even if our identity disappears, there is still a physical, functioning mind and in Susan’s case, that was terrified. I am very aware of this physical intelligence. I have built in fears that come up when there is the smallest threat to my physical well being. Usually I’m able to calm this panic by reminding myself that I am much more than a body, nevertheless the initial reaction of terror causes all sorts of physical trauma. The fact I am able to calm my body fits in well with Susan’s description of a witness standing outside the physical intelligence.

Eventually, after years of panic, Susan moved into another state of being. This was when she discovered that she was ‘Everything’. She was not a singular identity – that had disappeared; she was not her body, that too had been overridden. No, she was something else altogether! Her full understanding fell into place one day as she drove through the woods. It must have an amazing revelation for her as she realized that she was driving through herself. This is so profound I am only able to grasp the edges of her realization.

This is what Susan eventually wrote: Quote – I am the Infinite–no personal reference point–the substance of everything; I am the Vastness that is everyone and everything. And, I must add here, never for a moment does the awareness of that Infinite substance that is everything ever move out of the foreground of awareness whether there is waking, dreaming or sleeping states of consciousness occurring in the circuitry. There is no where for it to go. Where could it go? It is constant, every moment experience…….. There was a shift from no personal self, no “me,” to seeing that this experience of no personal self was actually the substance of everything. That is when the springtime began with the quality of joyfulness to it. What I can describe about what is being experienced currently, is residing in the Infinite within which the Infinite resides. There is no end point in all this. We are talking about the Vastness. It is very large. It continues to show Itself and show Itself.





Merging with other lives



As energy, we are constantly vibrating; constantly interacting with the various filaments of ourselves. Although most of us are unaware of of how we really function, we are constantly weaving in and out of the many dimensions of ‘the self’. At a certain level, far below the conscious mind, but still of great influence to our reality, we experience our friends in this same way, interacting, overlapping and harmonizing with a multitude of vibrating energies, distorting their world as we see it through our eyes, and automatically merging with their frequencies levels whenever we tune into their bandwidth. We judge them, we play with them, we love or hate them, and all this emotion is threaded through our reality. These are transparent realities that we move through,  surrounded by a multiplicity of probable realities, but such subconscious interactions are hardly noticed on the surface of our lives. Nevertheless, once we can grasp the fact that much of who we think we are is a nothing more than a transparency and that identity is ego based, then we can begin to understand the complexity of our life. We are not the solidly fixed, predicable person we think we are, and to add to this complexity, the life we are presently aware of is not the only life we are living. As Krishnamurti and many other tell us – we are living all our lives at once

A bold statement, and one which I have struggled with for years.  Yet once we understand the vagaries of time and space this statement becomes a little easier to accept. Looking at this question from a scientific perspective, they have begun to accept that in this reality, the mind processes events along a linear timeline; indeed, we could say the mind creates time for beyond this realm time/space does not exist. These are claims many people have refused to embrace, but then let’s not forget that we are energy, and as such we continually evolve through many layers of existence. Thousands of people remember their past lives, but naturally, because their thoughts are being processes in this 3rd dimensional reality, their memory is linear. When reviewing their past lives they are sure that a life lived in the 15th century must come before a life lived during the 1st world war, or a life lived around the time of Jesus must have taken place long before men walked on the moon, but once we move away from this realm we find that each life is being lived concurrently within its own field of energy. This complex layering system is built inside millions of energy fields; some spiraling around each other, others fitting together like a geometric series of boxes, one inside the other and all pulsing as if breathing. Sometimes the frequencies of these fields overlap, sometimes they collide or merge, but in the main these fields vibrate on their own bandwidth within the realm of probability. We solidify a reality when we consciousness think about it so everything we has an element of intangibility to it.

For those of us who have the imaginative ability to move through or across these realms we can view our lives outside of time. In each life, we will find an aspect of’ the self’ that has been created to develop a particular reality. All of these lives are personified by one’s higher self, and all of them create a life experience that enables us to develop an awareness of who and what we are. There is no such thing as karma, it is simply the see-saw effect of the lives we choose to lead, for very often we live through both aspects of a situation. Once we can accept this it is a little easier to understand how each of our lives can dovetail into the life we are leading here. We can be emotionally effected here and now, not only by the events of this life, but also by other lives. It is helpful to recognise how those other experiences can actually instigate events in our present reality. Everything is connected. Everything is as it should be. Our other lives can be viewed as completely separate, or as experiences that can influence this life – it is our choice. If we are willing to consider these ideas, then we can use our imagination to guide us towards an intimate and profound healing.

I make this statement because I personally have had enormous assistance. For years, I have knowledge and information about a few of my other lives, but usually when I viewed these events they felt a little like scenes in a movie. Then one night when I saw myself as a brutal captain of a sailing ship, I was able to understand enough of his life to have a sad feeling of forgiveness – so even though I was shocked, I managed to accept him and with great feeling I envisioned wrapping my arms around this bully. There was such an outpouring of love and grief it was as if this make-believe event of compassion had really happened. I sat with this experience for months not knowing how to interact with characters in my other lives. Also around this time, I began to fully understand the power of the heart. By learning how to drop down into my heart and by learning how to listen to its wisdom I have begun to be guided by this beautiful intelligence. I have also noticed that when I become stressed or intellectually dogmatic the heart’s message is drowned out by this emotional noise. Compassion and love are the by-lines of the heart’s manifesto and with this new understanding, I have been able to once again interact with myself in my other lives. Now I simply overlay my heart in this reality with myself there, and in each case when contact is made I feel waves of love and joy which lasts for many hours. In one traumatic life I saw how I was isolated in the Canadian wilderness, my trapper husband had disappeared, and I was unable to provide for my children. In this life I was in a deep almost unreachable depression so it took many tries before I could awaken her heart. But when I eventually made contact it was like I had reached someone on a telephone.  I was able to speak with her, calm her, indicate that she was not forgotten, and that her children’s love would sustain her. I felt an immediate change in her so I continued to merge our hearts.  I know she will die out there in the wildness, and that her children will learn how to survive, but when she does die love will surround her instead of the deadened coldness of her emotional state before we made contact.

These experiences have fired up my present life. I’m excited by the knowledge that we can influence lives we are living in other realities and I am grateful to be able to interact with my higher self in this way. These current experiences have confirmed my intuitive understanding about the fragile nature of these other worlds. They exist only if we can move out of the density of this reality and begin to use our imagination, our inner vision and our intuition to perceive realms that are so close they are but a heartbeat from us. To be able to drop down into our heart and trust this intelligence is the key to opening the door to the soul, and the experience of  Unconditional Love can be the result.



Our Physical Scoreboard

As mentioned in my last blog, I have been exploring the idea that we experience our physical bodies in order to grow, learn and expand. One goal is to become an expanded field of consciousness; another it to learn that we are Love. As I explore these well-founded ideas, fully accepted now in many quarters, I have recognised that these bodies we inhabit can be used as a register for areas of stress that we need to understand and eliminate. By this I mean that our physicality is a type of register, or score board. It records the trials and joys, we experience in our lives, meaning these events are registered somewhere in the body. As an example: perhaps some deeply suppressed rage may vibrate violently through a certain set of cells. As a result, this negative emotion may eventually cause a physical malfunction. Under such stress, cells could begin to break down, they could mass together in some type of cancer forming disease; or perhaps people with rigid, restrictive, fear-born attitudes might cause stiffness somewhere in the body which may eventually be diagnosed as arthritis, some terrible nerve disease, or perhaps eventually show up as an accident. These are simply suggestions. I have no idea exactly how illness, and injury occur, although I have my own set of illnesses that reflect attitudes, feelings and behaviors that I have created throughout my life.  Blocked heart arteries, hip replacement due to arthritis, just to name a few. So I suspect that the way the body absorbs our feelings gives us an opportunity to analyse and make adjustments. Our physicality enables us to record a multitude of difficulties that might eventually become the basis of an illness. This could not happen in dimensions where we exist as a field of consciousness, so living inside a body of matter gives us amazing advantages, even though illness causes pain. If we can step out of our fear and start to be guided by our illness we would benefit greatly. So many of us fear death. It does seem to be the end result of many of our most horrible illnesses, but once we can accept that dying in this dimension is simply letting go of the body- that in truth it is an illusion! We do not die, we continue to exist as consciousness – then we can begin to use illness as a guideline, and discover the emotional states that are holding back our development.

Group Mind – The Power of Thought

The various realities we exist in have been set in place by the belief system of various group-minds and these collectives are powerful states of conditioning. Robert Monroe and others have reported back that when a person crosses into the Afterlife their thoughts usually take them into the reality that most suits their belief system. These way-showers also explain that what happens there also happens here. ‘As above, so below’ – as the saying goes.  So this idea of collective thought building various realities reveals the absolute power of thought.

We need to be really mindful of this, because our minds never stop thinking.  The power of thought is an important part of this 3rd density reality, for the group mind manages to create many conflicting realities. Our family situation will make sure that from babyhood onward we accept the same group mind that is experienced by our family but as we develop we often become uneasy. Some of us discover that there are many different sets of beliefs and this realisation challenges our conditioning.  We suffer a crisis that forces us to turn away from the beliefs of the family, of school, of our friends, and sometime even of the society we live in. 

It is interesting to note that some of us who are rejecting certain beliefs and conditioning might be answering another call. This is where individual traits, and deep and profound inner knowledge rises to the surface of consciousness. It’s where freedom begins, and it is here that we need to begin to explore the idea that we are unique. That deep within our being there is a magnificent self that once released will colour our view of life. Unfortunately, some people cannot make this transition because they either fit nicely into their family’s belief system, or they are overwhelmed by such a strong group mind that escape is impossible, but for most of us, there will be an opportunity before we die of exploring who we really are. By turning inward, we will discover the colourful pieces of the puzzle that go to form ‘the self’. We realise we are not our body, we are much more; we realise we are not our mind or our intellectual process, we are much more and once we can ‘see’ how we respond to our ego, to our mind, to our body, then we have the chance – via the masses of information now being released – to feel freedom.

For centuries humanity lived in terror  of death, but this is changing as more and more people tell us death is just a transition of consciousness. If we can accept that living here in this 3rd density is a type of training ground then we can move beyond this all-encompassing dread. To know we are here in this body, creating this reality in order to learn and experience various outcomes, will perhaps eliminate some of our expectations and fears.

We are young souls. We have much to learn before we can move into a reality where thought drives reality. In such a state thought means instant manifestation of what is being thought and it also mean mental telepathy is automatic. Imagine such an existence. It would/will demand an ability to function in ways we cannot image yet. We are here in this reality to learn to focus, to learn intention; to learn to exercise mental control, meaning we are here to learn how to use thought in a totally new way. Letting go of the ego, learning to merge into the collective, learning to communicate with our soul, and learning to love who we are – this is why we are here. This is the classroom we all inhabit here in this 3rd dimension. Nevertheless, many of us still wonder why we are here. The Peggy Lee song ‘Is This All There Is?’ used to torment me when I was a kid, because it seemed to be so true, yet I loathed the idea. Intuitively I felt there had to be more! Eventually I bumped up against the reductionist group-mind that promoted the emptiness in that song. It was part of a silly belief about the pointlessness of life; then there was another that preached the doctrine that death was the end of everything, and still others who warned us about hell and a dark and punishing god who loomed overhead.  There are ancient, very rigid doctrines embedded in this type of group-mind so people need enormous courage to break free. Although there are many cultures still locked inside these collective mind traps, there is burgeoning awareness of the huge lie that has haunted mankind for centuries. There is hope! People are throwing off these ugly folk-tales and dogmas. As this happens and people begin to grasp the amount of learning that is ahead a powerful awakening occurs.

I have already mentioned that this is a time when individual traits, and deep and profound inner knowledge rises. Once this occurs we begin to understand why we must experience thousands of lives in order to understand consciousness. We start to grasp why we are here, who we really are, what wonders lie ahead, how unique we are and how precious this 3rd Dimensional life really is. Suddenly it all makes sense. We are here to experience the widest and most demanding range of life changing events in order to expand and move to the next stage of development. We are here to learn – and strange as it may seem – the body can become a register for much that we need to work on. Life in this dimension is full of contradiction and paradox so when one says we are more than our body – we are – but on the other hand the body is a vital part of our growth. It records our difficulties in the form of illness, or our successes in the form of pleasure. So, although we are energy, not matter, while we exist in this world of matter we can use our physicality as a guide. If we are aware enough we can read our bodies – use them as guides, use them to gain more information about who we are and what we feel. Because we are here on this plane to develop thought in its various forms – manifestation, telepathy, intention, intuition and so much more – using the tools of this dimension to access the deep realms of our being is a really wise thing to do. More and more of us are waking up to this opportunity, and by doing much of the work here, while living in the 3rd dimension, we are giving ourselves the chance to move quickly through the many layers and dimensions of consciousness once we have graduated.

The full power of thought, and all its ramifications, is beyond most of us, but more and more people are learning how to use it. They are moving into other fields of consciousness through OBEs, NDEs, meditations, visualisations and a host of amazing experiences that have expanded their knowledge. These way-showers are breaking down the barriers of conditioning and limitation by offering us vital information. They are sharing their knowledge, giving the rest of us methods we need in order to enter a much higher level of existence, and I thank them so much!




















Mirrored Dimensions

The following description is how I experience the shimmering anomaly we know as reality, but these are only words – how it really is beyond anything I can describe. Anyway this is how I see it!

As a body, we vibrate at various frequencies. As we shift through dimensions our vibratory rate alters. We are never still. As an energy system, we are constantly vibrating, shifting and transferring. We live amid a conglomerate of dimensions which mirror each other, meaning we have no way to pin point who the ‘self’ is unless we turn inward and interact with our inner being. So, we move through various mirror images, which are like layers or dimensions of the identity we are projecting at this time. Because we are constantly vibrating or moving from one layer to the next we mirror back feelings, knowledge, experience, illness, joy, creativity, depression and a trillion other states of being from one reflection to another, constantly mirroring back and forth as our field of energy transmits to the surrounding realities. With each breath, we are somebody new, and this interaction as we vibrate back and forth allows a continuum to be experienced. We never stop, we reflect our states of being between these mirrored layers which we think of as solid and fixed, and we overlap and interact with our friends in this same way. These are transparent realities. We reflect through each other and through ourselves. Once we can grasp the fact that we are a reflection then we can begin to understand the complexity of our life, and if we let go of thinking we are constantly the same person, solidly fixed with an unbroken past, and a predictable future we will break free from the illusion we live in.



Is Consciousness an Inter Dimensional Computer?

Historically, mankind has produced many men of vision  (some even attached to religion) who have described the illusion we are living in as a dream or a hologram. The present batch of these wise men seem to be mostly coming from Science; physicists who have crunched the numbers and now predict that this reality is a hologram, a assimilation, or a computer program, and that the game within this simulated universe is the drama of consciousness. It has been suggested that consciousness is a computer, and coded into it is a complete download of all the information we need to function in this machination we call life.

I have written about this virtual reality before, relieved that I have a scientific explanation to back up my intuition. Strangely, I have always known that the world we thought of as just one, big, solid, real universe, was not what it seemed, but I could never express it, for it felt intangible – just too fleeting to grasp. But in the 90s, as I began to understand a little about quantum physics, my inner knowing simply exploded into a hard truth. People were claiming the world was a hologram. I did not fully understand holographic mechanics, but the basic inference seemed to be saying, it’s not real! Then I read about Lester Levenson’s experiences. He talked about the fact we are living in a dream, and because his story was so mystically profound it filled my heart with hope. Maybe we were going to be able to understand where we were, who we were, and what our reason was for dreaming this dream. Lester spoke about the illusion we live in, and that in this simulated world we create our reality. I mentally played with this idea of a dream-state, and although Lester Levenson became a sort of guru for me, I was not really satisfied to be describing reality as a dream. He was able to create a pathway through my daily chaos by explaining that because we created our reality we needed to become responsible for every action and every choice we made. He also knew that the end result of living in this dream was to discover the meaning of love. The work he did on his inner-self as he opened up to all these understanding actually healed his body, so he really did create a new way of looking at the world. Nevertheless, I have continued to explore the realms of consciousness, trying to match my inner vision with the constant wealth of information now flooding through from scientific discoveries as well of those who have experienced OBEs and NDEs.

The idea that this reality we live in is some type of complex program, similar to a hyper dimensional computer program, helped make sense of my inner knowing. Thomas Campbell has put forward an exciting idea that suggests that what we know as consciousness could be a complex computer, designed by some type of super being(s). If consciousness is a computer it is not as we know the technology for it will be far more intelligent than anything humanity could conceive of. Still, this simplistic imagery works for me because in my inner-eye I see multiple dimensions; millions of energy fields; some spiraling around each other, others fitting together like a geometric series of boxes, one inside the other and all usually pulsing as if breathing. Many of these realities overlap, and for those who have the vision to move through or across them, they are able to view their reality from many viewpoints all at once. Past, present and future are presented as one stream of thought, and also there is an  awareness of multiple choices in multiple  fields of energy. Although I know this, I have not consciously experienced it but I’m pleased to say this imagery was confirmed when I read about William Buhlman’s work. For years he has been recording his ‘out of body’ experiences, and he speaks about his many selves on many levels he moved through a multitude of dimensions. Also he realised that many of the scenarios he lived through in this OBE state revealed symbolic messages for his own growth. I found William’s writings exciting for his experiences fitted with what I was picturing. They confirmed what I believe – that this complex structure is a gift, and if we can muddle through this maze, our awareness will lift to heights that we currently have no conception about.  

Physically we exist in very dense fields of energy, and the world we consciously inhabit seems to be a huge, singular, very solid universe – but there are millions of them. Millions of universes just like the one we are living in. Seems difficult to rap our minds around this, but remember this is a computer program and these universes are simulations. Of course, we – as physical entities – fit nicely into the program. But we are more than a body, we are a series of intangible states of awareness, all connected via this mighty consciousness technology. There are many many layers of us, inhabiting many simulated worlds. Most people remain unaware of these inner worlds which exist below the normal level of awareness, but this complexity could be a teaching aid because in these various states of awareness, we move into fields of energy that are full of information. When sleeping, we move into non material fields of reality; when dreaming, we inhabit places where we interact with other parts of ourselves; when in meditation we move into a different state of awareness; when illness causes hallucinations or when we ingest psychogenic drugs it is processed on a variety of levels; when we have out of body experiences, or other transcendental states, we move into a multitude of amazing realities. It is my opinion that most of what we experience throughout our various lives is controlled or created by our higher self, and that eventually we will begin to wake up to the truth of who we are and why we are here.

 This understanding allows us to work with consciousness in a new way. If we were able to accept this idea that consciousness could be some type of super- computer we might begin to approach our existence differently. It is through our unique and individual connection to consciousness that the simulation of our reality is created. Each of us experiences a different creation, a different story, and if we can begin to explore this idea then our spiritual journey may speed up. Campbell said that once we realise we are in a virtual reality, then the fear goes, and we become love. I’m not arguing with this, but he surprised me when he made this huge leap from computer simulation to love. To me we are all connected to this overarching, collective consciousness and we are trying to evolve so that we will eventually move into this rarefied field of Love.

Now that I have a better grasp of the multiplicity of realities and what we call our inner-self, I am able to answer a question that has dogged me ever since I heard Kristnamuti claim that all our past lives were being lived right now.  Time has been a mystery that I have struggled to understand because there was never a question that K might be wrong, yet I could not visualise how we were living all our lives at once. Now it is clear. We exist within multiple dimensions. We exist in a variety of virtual realities. Each reality is separate, yet always we are connected to the entire computer stimulation via consciousness. Living concurrent lives has nothing to do with time for this theory explains how we can be living a Roman life in one field of consciousness, living another life in ancient Greece, another in Biblical times, and a 4th in the second world war while all the time existing here as well.

We can no longer consider ourselves as a fixed and solid, living a linear life in a known world. We are powerful creators and this computer simulation allows us to create the reality we chose for it is through consciousness that we are connected to everything and everybody. It’s a perfect system. We draw down into our lives all that we believe we need but of course we make many mistakes so it is obvious that Lester is right when he said we must take responsibility for our choices. Consciousness allows this to happen. Indeed, the only reason for this whole mechanism we call human life is to allow us to create, to experience and to expand. For many, this cycle may have been going on for hundreds of lifetimes. A spiral of experience and creation that eventually leads to a pinnacle where we begin to experience the ultimate tool of creation – love.